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[Nov. 19th, 2009|12:41 am] |
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i rather be dead .
i'm depressed about everything that is happening now.
physically, mentally.
the pain is too much for me to bear.
i wish i am not sick .
i just want to be healthy . is that too much to ask?
i hate waking up with swollen legs and toes.
i hate the sore knees after i sat for too long.
i hate waking up with sore fingers after using the com at night.
i hate not being able to come out of the bed.
i hate not being able to move my hands and legs.
i hate to be think that i am lazy cos i cant simply carry heavy stuffs
i hate myself for trying to hard and pretend everything is ok.
i feel so useless.
you are not me.
u dont understand the fucking pain i am going thru.
do u think i love relying on painkillers every single day!
do u think i love waking up several times at night because of the pain!
do u think i love limping on my way to sch!
do u think i love to cry silently at night!
YOU SIMPLY DONT KNOW WHAT E FUCK I M GG THRU EVERY SINGLE DAY.
i dun need u to pity me. i just need to get this all out for once.
my life is over.
i want to be alone and i rather be alone. |
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| BKK CRAZE |
[Nov. 13th, 2009|02:16 am] |
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I'm obsessed with bangkok. (:
Totally.
I am going with daddy plus family. and most probably woody!
I am so thrilled about it ! (:
AND another good news it that i'll be going to bkk again with my tac loves in JAN!
We alrd booked the tickets.
How can i contain my joy any further!
I just cant wait for the time to be here.
Meanwhile, i just have to try my best to focus on my exams.
i cannot afford to fail my last sem and go back to tt Sch of Money!
):
In times of sadness, how can i not go for lots and lots of getaway trips.
Staying in Singapore is making me breathless.
i need to relax and shop non-stop!
I got to save and bring tons of shoe n clothes back! (:
YAY-ness.
I am really lucky this year.
I get to travel alot.
I am soooo surprised myself. (:
And i hope it will continue next year till i think of what i should do aft i graduate.
for the time being, i just want to get out of the school asap!
ok CIAO.
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[Nov. 7th, 2009|02:16 am] |
  My best buy of the day.  My clean room. No longer this way thou. Went shopping yesterday.
Overspent!
But I was v v happy.
Had an awesome day with Sheryl.
Love her so much. (:
She didnt manage to get anything
so came over my house and grab!
(:
We had a great time trying clothes and stuffs.
How i like a girl's night out and time tgt.
SWEET!
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[Nov. 3rd, 2009|04:28 pm] |
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I realised tt mostly my blog posts are sad.
ok!! I will try to post smth happy today.
Lols. Its hard.
Nth much to be happy about these days.
Its frustrating. ):
Oh ya!!
I've been wanting a itouch since my bday.
(: (: and woody paid half for it !
bought it on sunday.
Till now, I haven get e hang of it..
I'm a total noob !! Haha.
Finish my isb project!
Thanks to ben who helped half of it!!! (:
macro left.
It only means tt exams are coming!
Going shopping on thurs w sheryl.
I can't wait !!
I need to get smth to cheer myself up!!
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[Nov. 3rd, 2009|03:35 am] |
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last week was hectic.
turning 19 seems to be a bad thing.
been crying so often tt I couldn't believe it myself.
I'm not that happy.
What he said was perhaps right.
Just tt I don want to admit it..
But deep down in my heart, I alrd know tt will happen.
But I'm glad this make me brave to ask.
Thou I didn't get the answer I want,
But at least I know where I stand.
I must say tt I'm contented.
Tt's all I need.
I hope greed will nt overcome me.
I don't want to be wanting more.
Enough is enough.
Shall update more soon. |
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[Oct. 20th, 2009|11:20 pm] |
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 . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . OMG. He is so CUTE! (:  Look at those booties ! (: Love it. I want one of those!  I WANT MORE & MORE shoes! (: SHOPPING MAKES ME HAPPY!
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[Oct. 7th, 2009|01:21 am] |
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CHATUCHAK !!
OMG (: (:
just watched fashion asia.
me and mun pratically shouted on the phone.
Cant believe tt i'm actually going to bkk this sat
with mommy, uncle, mun and peiyu. (:
I AM FUCKIN EXCITED!!
the shoes. the clothes. the bags. the accessories.
AH!
gonna shop till i drop.
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[Oct. 6th, 2009|12:49 am] |
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Not all scars show
Not all wounds heal
sometimes, its really hard to see the pain someone feels.
Sch started.
Feeling very lethargic when it comes to school.
had trouble sitting still for 3 hrs.
BKK is just 4 days away.
I am reall excited about it .
Simply cant wait to fly there and shop.
Dear God,
pls let me be pretty and skinny.
i feel & look so ugly!
):
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ARGH. |
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[Sep. 29th, 2009|11:45 pm] |
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BUSY BUSY.
i've not been blogging.
Thou there are soooo much going on these months.
Firstly is My Miss Yan's Bday.
Then, woody enlisted into Army!
First bk out dinner at NYNY.
IT fair.
May's Wedding
Hari Raya visit at Aisyah's place.
Brother's 21st celebration
(:
Going bkk next sat.
sudden economic crisis spoilt my mood.
):
I'm soooo sad.
I really gotta start working as many days as I can.
I really need money.
Went to ortho today.
BAD NEWS again.
I've to extract 4 teeth.
After extraction, the holes will need time to close.
so in the meantime, I will look soooo ' BO GEI ' .
):
Sch reopening this thurs.
HOLIDAYS ARE O-V-E-R.
):
Letter came.
ARGH. YES.School Fees.
SIM = School of MONEY~
$$
Spoilt my mom's mood to bkk too.
I'm sooo sorry!
OK.
Enough.
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[Sep. 2nd, 2009|01:01 am] |
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I am sooo nt supposed to be online blogging away.
but i cant contain my excitement any longer!
if i fail, it really serves me right.
):
but GOD, pls dun let me fail.
for the next 5 hrs, i will study hard! ):
2nd last paper.
BOO.
Ok, back to the topic.
I've just booked the air tics to BKK!
(:
I am gg with my beloved mom, mun and pei yu!!!
How can i nt be excited bout this shopping trip.
And our hotel suite room is BIG!
With living room!
LOL.
althou i am gg bkk again in dec with my dad,
but i jus feel tt shopping with them will be much more F-U-N.
shall nt let my dad about it.
he might feel sad ):
OCT 10!
Cant wait.
P.S: Thanks mom for payin part of my air tic!
LOVE YOU! Muacks.
TOODLES.
back to mugging. :-#
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[Aug. 30th, 2009|11:11 pm] |
Tuition.
I realized i am one w no common sense.
i cannot understand words.
):
teacher always say this," this qn, common sense right?"
LOL.
then i will tell her," but i've no common sense lehs."
She told me too bad.
counted my pay wrongly.
it was devastating.
):
wanted to use tt money to pay everything tt is coming this mth.
braces, tuition fee, bday, bkk.
NOW,
i cant.
GRRR
i need more money!!!
PHOTOS! (:
TAIWAN
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[Aug. 29th, 2009|07:08 pm] |
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 Suprise suprise ...
Watched Vasatham just now.
This movie caught my attention.
" Every Child is special "
Its about this 8 yrs old boy who have problems with reading and writing.
His parents who are more concerned bout marks and h/w ,
sent him away to boarding school.
the boy became depressed and frightened.
many teachers gave up on him.
then came a new art teacher who discovered boy's hidden talent.
the boy could paint really well.
teacher helped him soo much
and boy picked himself up again.
u gotta watch the movie!
its soooo touching.
i teared like nobody's business. (:
THUMBS UP! (:
Inspiring indeed.
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[Aug. 29th, 2009|03:25 pm] |
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when you love someone
and they break your heart
dont give up on love.
hold on.
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[Aug. 29th, 2009|02:31 pm] |
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back frm taiwan (:
it seemed like i've nv been there at all.
time flies too fast. it feels like a dream.
spent all my money there. As usual. LOL.
MADFOOT is my best buy. Cos u cannot find it in SG! (:
Imported from JAPAN.
i count myself lucky to find girl's size for tt. (:
Currently studying for my exams.
which is next tue. ):
I have trouble understanding everythin.
this is what you get when you dont listen in class.
or shld i say, for skipping classes. :-#
met up with my girls on wed at changi to study.
yes we did study. But we talked more than we actually studied.
24 hrs of staying awake. I dun feel tired at all with my girls.
I realised tt i cannot live without them.
life will be soooo dull and sad. ):
been thinking alot these days.
ppl have been giving me really gd advices what i shld really do for the next 2 yrs.
maybe i shld not waste my youth anymore.
i am getting older. its time to really look at the world outside.
why is giving up so hard for me?
it makes me feel so useless when i failed.
sometimes when i look at you. i felt the pain in me.
it is right to say tt only ur loved ones can hurt you most.
how long do i want to burden myself with tt?
GOD, pls guide me thru this painful journey.
&& bless tt i will pass my exams.
smth for me to look forward aft exams!
bkk in oct ! (: (:
WHOOOOOO!
=-#
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[Aug. 16th, 2009|12:59 pm] |
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In the airport now.
waiting for our flight.
(:
going w woods first.
CHANG,
dun be sad.
U will be joining us in 2 days time.
Be patient kid. (:
Be wise Be nice.
Meanwhile,
we will shop and eat like crazy! (:
Too excited.
Toodles!
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| CHOCOLATES |
[Aug. 4th, 2009|10:14 pm] |
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OMG!
Woody's manager got him ROYCE chocolate.
managed to try one of those.
IT'S FREAKING GOOD.
It literally melts in ur mouth.
Ur throat will not feel uncomfortable like how other chocos do.
ITS soooo good!!
i fell in love with it immediately. (:
Gonna buy one box !!!!!
and eat it all by myself.
cos woody is nt gg to share anymore.
Grr.
YUM YUM! (:
Felt so blissed aft eating tt.
No words are gd enough to describe tt chocolates.
no wonder the salesperson in ROYCE got to wear suit.
LOL.
now i know.
How Can I be skinny if i am still eating chocolates?
Shoppin trip is coming.
I need to slim down so tt i can buy those pretty clothes.
I am so going on a diet.
Burn those bloody fats away. ):
Must stick with strictly only Yoghurt n Fruits diet plan.
ROYCE chocos can be the exception.
LOL.
I MUST SLIM DOWN!!!!!!
&&
tummy n flabby arms no more!
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[Aug. 4th, 2009|10:05 pm] |
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 Just watched Fashion Asia on Channel U.
(:
I cant wait to go tw ! Like now.
Whooo. NEXT SUNDAY!
My shopping list is going on and on.
i think i will spend away all my money in 1 day. ):
I need $$ . More $$ to be exact !
Taiwan. Taiwan. Taiwan.
Seriously, i think i am going crazy.
Time pls fly as fast as u can.
(: Ok. I re-watched 命中注定我爱你. In just 2 days. i cant believe it myself either. HAHA. cried so much watching tt show. now i have dark eye circles n ugly eye bags. ): They have it on channel U now. MUST-watch. Love it. (: toodles. (: |
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[Jul. 30th, 2009|04:05 pm] |
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is it a curse or what?
Why is it repeating again?
I hope I can be depressed enough n stop eating!
Tt's one I can be happy about.
pre-overseas period sucks. Totally.
I have to keep myself busy with thinkin of what I want to buy and how to get more money!
Who cares bout u ?
Who wants to cry for u again?
I dun ever want to waste my tears on someone like u!!!
We're just wasting our time.
I meant NTH to you.
Fuck. |
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[Jul. 27th, 2009|11:14 pm] |
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The magic of first love is our ignorance tt it will nv end.
how wrong is that.
Rmb how i used to lie on ur shoulder,
held ur hands
and hugged u like a giant teddy bear.
its like a missing part in me.
when i am down,
i can no longer turn to you.
Lost w/o you.
Love is cruel.
how hard and miserable it is to pretend u dont love someone
tt you really do.
when u stopped loving someone,
whatever he/she does, it irks u so much.
whatever he/she said, its rubbish to you.
All you can say are things tt are v hurtful.
Memories became nth to you.
Nth hurts more than realizing how much he meant to you
and u meant nth to him.
Letting go is harder.
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